Moved On and still Yet to move on?
Everything is beautiful here. Just once in a blue moon, I get distracted. Every inch of my mind and soul says I don’t wanna recall anything that has happened. Why do I keep complaining? I don’t know the other side of the story and still, I don’t wanna know. What will I do knowing? Do I care? No.
I am clear this time. But why those emotions? Why those hidden notes? Still. What am I running from? Am I guilty? Can I go back and fix things? No. Do I want to go back and fix things? Not at all.
People come and go, right? I know but why do I fail to remind myself. What gone has now been a part of my story, and it has now faded along with time. I can’t live in past. It’s not meant to be that way. What’s now is touchwood, and I am loving it.
Am I having a hope that someday something will miraculously happen? But why. Things are uncertain. Maybe I am being selfish or not trying to be realistic.
There are days when things hit me. When I see out of my window, sometimes I feel the enormous peace and sometimes they take me to my fears. Everyone faces uncomfortabilities in their life. Every day is a different day, and every start is a new start. Someone said the people who are with you today are your people at present. The ones you had yesterday were there just till yesterday. Our sane minds sometimes can’t convince our hearts. Indeed the memories they keep triggering. Memories Damn.
Somedays are messy. And it’s okay. You can’t be happy chappy everyday. You can’t have a perfect schedule, go on walks and exercise each day. You just feel like sitting still and just letting yourselves to feel what you want to. It’s okay to lie on the floor not feel like doing anything. And at last you are going to pick all the scattered mess and stand up on your own. Things will hit you, doesn’t mean that you are weak until and unless you are trying to stand and not give up. The events of your life don’t define, they are just phases, not ‘you’. The you that is just known to yourself and hence no one else.
Thoughts disturbing you today, won’t disturb with the same intensity tomorrow. Allow yourself to process.
P.s. Take care of yourselves and your family.
-pr_a_sh_uma☘️
