Live this Life.

I don’t know if re-birth happens. If there is incarnation after death, peace people talk about, heaven and hell. What I know is, about this life, this life when we are breathing and functioning.

Today, a close relative of mine was diagnosed with a life long disease. Treatments are gonna take so much effort, time and money. We don’t know if the treatment is possible in the country we are residing or needs to be taken to some other country. But the thought is, will he be able to pampered by his children, will he be treated on time? It felt bad and scary. But, it’s a bitter truth.

We, many of us take life for granted. The process of inhale and exhale, have we ever thought about the functioning of our heart, how complex and critical it is. It needs to function 24 hours. My grandmother was a heart patient. I remember aama a lot, but she is not with me anymore. Grieving her loss makes me sad, when I see my mom, my aunt and my mama, I feel as if I could be their mom till I live and never let them miss her. I barely see them crying, cause they are so good at hiding emotions. Aama comes to meet us every night with those shining stars, and she wants us to live happily. She was just 50 and full of life.

Does any one know about another life? Cause I don’t know. We are not going to get the same life again. We are not going to meet the same people again, even if another life exists. Even if it exists, are we going to take birth as a human being again? So many questions and if I go deep down for the answers, trust me I will probably forget to live this life.

Life is full of events and experiences, may it be good or bad. This life is a blessing and moreover to remain healthy is a boon. We will meet people, gather experiences, go for learnings, sometimes get into the peak of success and yet fail. We will have tons of emotions in different forms. We will do crazy stuffs. Sometimes people and events will make us sad and compel us to judge ourselves. You know, I had this phase in life when I started to judge and blame myselves for every bad events happening in the life of people I am close with. I lost 6 kgs, in the process. Sleepless nights and cries for months. Have gone to work with swollen eyes. I started to feel the distance with my selves. Rejecting stage programmes and isolating from my closed ones, I stopped speaking in front of people.

Whatever the journey was for 4–5 months, it was labelled anxiety and something later on. I am in the process of trying to know myselves again. In the journey I have been realising, even if people think I am bad, should I accept? For every definition and clarification people give about my looks, personality and character, am I supposed to take all of it? I can’t always be amazing and calm. I am a human being and I have emotions, I react sometimes and it’s okay. Instead of feeling guilty and hating my-selves more I need to focus on improving. I don’t have a control over people coming to me or going away from me. Forcing things and events are gonna make it more toxic. My journey is different and yet I am trying. Who ever is reading this, my dear it’s your journey and you are trying. If not today, than someday but you are gonna make it. Failures, comments and rejections, keep working on yourselves, season changes, weathers do change, it’s never too late to shine.

We have this life sweetheart, and sometimes it’s gonna be tough. It is a part of living life, says my mother. Work on it, take yourselves on small breaks, eat healthy, move your body, it’s good to meditate (I am not being able to maintain the consistency), have a positive self talk, if you can — journal your thoughts, drink enough water, face time with your loved ones, clean your space, go for a walk, work on your dreams — roads to amazing places are not that easy (the more struggle : the more satisfaction once you complete).

I always want you guys to light a candle, or make a favourite drink for yourselves or do something that makes you happy while you are on a journey of reading my articles. Right now, Juli is sleeping besides me and I am pampering her time and often while writing. I would love to hear what makes you guys happy.

Live your life dear ones,

Love Love

• Prasuma

P.S. Juli is my pet dog❤️