I feel lost!

I feel lost, even in the crowds of people,

Everyone smiles but I can’t

To the world of fake praises and made smiles,

They say, “You can’t fit”.

Yes, I ain’t able to.

They backbite yet, smile with the same,

I see all the false bonds,

yet I am silent.

Silently depressed, frustrated and amazed,

How do people manage?

I don’t wanna “WAKE UP”,

Cause I need to head to office,

Again, one more fake smile.

Unhealthy Competition,

Everyone's in the race,

Yet, I am no where.

Perfect: What’s perfect?

I wanna remain Imperfect,

If it’s just about being liked.

They said, “SPEAK UP”,

But, where is the voice heard?

I spoke and I was made shut.

Is it because I am a girl

Or a human with too much of emotions?

They manage, but I can’t

I panic, yet they smile,

Oh Damn! I am not being able to smile.

My friend says, you have lost your charm,

Which charm?

Charm I carried in the stage? Or while clicking pictures?

Oh yeas,

The aura of speaking without fear,

but I swear I can’t today.

I don’t wanna come to this place,

This place : My friend’s know

My parent’s know,

I feel less, and unwanted

Ugghhh,

Am I complaining too much?

Innocence sometimes is a sin,

when you are dumb, with a perfect vocal cord,

with judgements people pass,

can someone give me a ignorance class?

No one’s bad but they are a badass.

My creativity all fucked up,

where is the excel knowledge to the mark?

They use functions, less excel and more criticisms,

brainwash and keep us on a race.

Do I need a pace?

I feel lost.

To be continued……